Aaron Hernandez & # 39; fiance wished the late NFL star had told her he was secretly gay – and insisted in an interview that aired on Wednesday that she "hadn't loved him any differently".
Shayanna Jenkins-Hernandez told "Good Morning America" that the hardest part of watching the Netflix documentary series "Killer Inside: The Mind of Aaron Hernandez" was the ongoing speculation about her ex's sexuality before he committed suicide in prison.
She said the close end of the former New England Patriots seemed "surely a man for me" while he insisted that it would have been "nice" if he had admitted secret sexual feelings for men.
"If he felt that way or if he felt the urge, I wish he'd tell me," said Jenkins-Hernandez, fighting the tears as she spoke the rumors.
"And I wish he had told me because I wouldn't have loved him otherwise. I would have understood
"It is not shameful and I think no one should be ashamed of who he is, no matter who he loves.
"I think it's a nice thing. I just wish I could tell him that," she insisted.
However, she believes his sexuality shouldn't have been an issue for the Netflix show since Hernandez is no longer here to discuss it.
"You can't describe a person's sexuality without being here," Jenkins-Hernandez told GMA. "Although I have a child with Aaron, I still can't tell you how he felt in me. Nobody can."
Hernandez's brother, Jonathan, insisted in a separate interview that the former soccer player had good reason to hide his sexuality – because his late father would have brutalized him about it.
When asked how Papa Dennis Hernandez would have said if Aaron had tried to tell him that he had "conflicting thoughts" about his sexuality, Jonathan said to Dr. Oz: "I don't know if he could have finished his sentence."
"I cannot imagine that he is capable of this – my father would have thought that he could beat that out of him," said the brother to Dr. Oz in an episode that was expected on Thursday due to the full broadcast.
He described how brutal the beating would be for her. "Oh, I don't think Beat is really the word that you can express when you literally have to blow on your brother's wounds because a belt or handprint folds in his body and he has a burning sensation, ”he said said.
"You now have the rule that you can be beaten in your household, but you stay away from your face so that other people don't notice."
The former professional footballer hanged himself in his prison cell in 2017 after he was convicted of a murder but two others were acquitted.
Before he died, he claimed he had connections to a fourth murder, a former cellmate told journalist Dylan Howard about his book "Aaron Hernandez's Killing Fields," which was published late last year.